428

i am not a guy that like to talk politic, but 428 had really inspire me a lot.

428 is the day that will become our history--Malaysia history

put aside what the main goal or objective, i think that EVERYONE should start to wake up

realize that WE as MALAYSIAN should unite

who care what races you all, you are MALAYSIAN!

It's not the particular races who do bad deed, It is human who will do bad things

try to be open minded, comment in a manner way,

don't critics according to races, critics according to the particular thing

if we don't stop being racist, Malaysia will never advance to become better country

stop guess who are those people that start the riot

it's no point as A will say B did it, B will said C did it, C will said X did it,....

let the investigation carry on

truth and justice will come one day

Everyone, stop racist and start be friendly,

it is better to take a baby step rather than standing

try to remember how OUR ancestor regardless race unite and build this country

Dont let 513 happen again

Prove to the world that we as Malaysian can live in peace and harmony!!

The regret of being "kiasu"

i should express this by chinese,
but the computer lab dont have chinese program,
and i desperate to spill it out before i go crazy,
so here it is.

today i had a quiz,
i had read it last night
but what i read was A while the quiz was B
so?i started to scared
fear to hand in an empty paper, i chose to "discuss'
at the end of the quiz, we submitted it,
and, the lecturer asked,
why i choose to looked at my neighbor answer,
well, i told that i was not confident with my answer,
is that so?honestly i dont know
i used to be a carefree person,
but when temptation come,
i struggle
normally, i would say that do what you know,
but that is when i can answer most of the questions
i still can hold on that principal if i can answer half of the questions
but now, i go against my own principal when the condition is worst
at the moment
i felt that what i did make God down
i failed to stand firm with my principal
many thought come into my mind
"y me"
"others also do the same thing"
"y am i so unlucky?"
"i rarely do it"
all of them are incorrect
all these are jz my excuses
deep down in me
there is still some kiasu syndrome
many might say that "discussion" only mah
is a small matter
everyone do it
if u are caught
then u are unlucky nia
but for me
i know that what is wrong is wrong
there is no different between small cheat and big cheat in God eyes
they both are sins
if i say i wont be emo
i would be lying to myself, maybe others
though, is time for me to reflect myself
admitting that kiasu is one of my weakness
admitting that i feel envy
envy for those who can get high marks without putting efforts
i fell unfairness, i feel tired
is something like fishing
i fish everyday, getting fish
some cant get any fish while fishing
i'm glad to help them
but some dont even want to hold the fishing rod, and just ask for fish
i m trying to teach fishing, but some prefer just to get fish
and as time go on, people just expecting fish form me
its just so tiring
sometimes i fish all day and does not get any fish
and sometimes i just want somebody to fish with me
but
i'm alone (almost)
and at the end, the one who fishing getting lesser fish than the one who is not
the world is unfair, but, i really cant get used to it
its so mean
after today
i'm not sure whether i qualify to teach fishing or not
as i am a lousy fisher
and i will try harder
try harder till i have the courage to hand in a blank paper...

Gradutation

High School Musical 3 was on cinema when I'm form 5
never have a chance to watch it since is during SPM
today, i watched it, after my matriculation programme
the feeling is similiar to when I'm in form 5
everyone is worry about their future
feeling sad seperating their freinds or should i say
knowing who is TRUE friend
(well this is contradict to what the old said

"there is never a longlasting friend or longlasting enemy")

is that true? i don't know
but what I know is mantaing a friendship is really hard
though true freinds bond a worth to hold on to...

well, my future is in God hand
whether the path is going to be harsh or smooth
i'm still have to going on~

Gradutation

High School Musical 3 was on cinema when I'm form 5
never have a chance to watch it since is during SPM
today, i watched it, after my matriculation programme
the feeling is similiar to when I'm in form 5
everyone is worry about their future
feeling sad seperating their freinds or should i say
knowing who is TRUE friend
(well this is contradict to what the old said

"there is never a longlasting friend or longlasting enemy")

is that true? i don't know
but what I know is mantaing a friendship is really hard
though true freinds bond a worth to hold on to...

well, my future is in God hand
whether the path is going to be harsh or smooth
i'm still have to going on~

It's over

well, since i'm back
i should use chinese...
but now it seems i rather use broken english
so irony...
forget many chinese word d...

Anyway,
1 year of hell education come to an end...
thats mean i no need to go back that place again...
is that a good thing?
well
there are only a few good memories
but 1000++ bad memories
so i dont really wanna talk about the things there

i think i wont be writting blog that often anymore
must cutting down on writting all -ve stuff

so~+ve stuff about kmpk
i get know some of the friend
(which make me a failure because is SOME not ALL)
giving a excuse that most of them taking bio course
(seems reasonable...)

learn that what friend can be trusted and vice versa
what to do about it?NOTHING...world is full of hypocrite...

nothing much to say for the +ve stuff
so
before i end
i want to thanks all those who be SINCERELY nice to me
because of u guys i have some +ve memories there...

wish everyone get 4~flat and first choice!

Move On

As "Prince" said
time flies...
it's true
it's been 3 weeks the 2nd sem started
and it all started badly
there was a black parrade during my MUET test
then i got fever for 2 days,stomach ache for a week, tooth pain for 3 days(or more)
food poisoning that cause me vomit and stomach ache in the middle of the night;
(yea, i have stomach problem and i am weak!)
join a parachutte competition,360 physics explorace,
got my exam results ,
and last but not least
3 assignments! not included tutorial and past year questions!
time seems not enough...
sad or happy
busy or free
i still have to move on...

Back to Study...Again!

Few hours left before i go back
to a hectic and dreadful lifestyle
not to say that having a MUET test tommorrow
my future is depending on that
different than other subject
language is a subject that cannot be studied
and i don't no how to prepare
i will be doom tommorrow!

Semester 2 will be a new sem
hope to get a good lecturer then
sadly, i don't have cpmputer class anymore
which means that no more bloging & internet surfing...
haiz...

PSPM Panic!

Today is the last day of lecture
and the lass day I will be together with my classmates
they are friendly
though I sometimes really need someone with the same kind with me in class
...
every lecture say thanks and ask for forgiveness during their lass class
last but not least
they greet and wish us good luck in our exams
when i heard this
i feel a lot of pressure
as i and the same kind need to get 4 flat
it is not impossinle
but it is not easy either
somemore we have MUET
how can i struggle to get a good band with such bad language?
nothing much to say
just i need to fear for the time for execution!

Hectic schedule

It has been almost two month after semester break
and i "half sleep" in almost all the lectures
i know the problem is in me
but i can't diagnose it
i tried to sleep early
and it doesnt work
i tried to drink coffee every morning
and it give no effect
what should i do?
Double dose my drug (caffeine) to stay awake and become a coffee addict?
or just forget about coffee and continue my "sleepyness" in class for my health sake?
either way i need to make a huge sacrifice...

7 days from Raya holidays
all the lecturers are trying to finish the syllabus in time
and it seems a little bit impossible
so we have extra classes or so called night classes
i does not complain that i need to go to more class
since that i want the lecturer to finish the syllabus
i just complain that i do not have enough time
i need a lot of time to complete the homeworks
just that it will used up most of the time and i will not have the time to do revision
(sometimes i even doubt that whether i truely learn about anything in here)
what to do ?
Life is Hard...
(not to mention that MUET and final exam is around the corner!)

well usally i hang aroung in my friends room
as my roomates are nocturnal
(getting more nocturnal during this puasa period)
so i seldom talk with my roomates
as i hardly meet them awake
however the cause me a lot of trouble
staying active at night chatting around loudly is not a good environment for sleeping
my roomates friends usually gather at my neighbour to smoke now come to my room
though they dont smoke here
but they really are loudspeakers
is they anything i can do?
i dont dare to voice up
there are 5 of them and 1 of me
luckily my friends room have extra bed
i slept there for already two days
so irony
i have a better realtionship with my friend's roomates than mine...

CF CAMP

First
i will like to tell how the camp was organized...

During the first week of lectures,
we had a Christian Fellowship (CF) or Care Group (CG) on Friday noon
our teacher asked us wheter we wanted to have a camp at Harvest Haven
(click here for more info about Harvest Haven. http://www.capernwray.com.my/Ministries.html)
(she said that that place is fun, supported by a Ipoh guy, my friend, Raee which when there before)
most of the people give positive answers
but no one start to do anything...
as for me
i hate camp
i was not sured whether i should participated
but i did
i drafted out somethings
and let them continued the works
mostly people need others for a little push
then we started to plan...

we went there before our semester break to survey and booking
(wow, it really is a nice place in a middle of nowhere!)
after we saw the place
we really want the camp to be a success
but most of the weekend are fully booked
(until the weekend of next year!!)
we have to check the date to confirm whether it crushes with college activities
luckily we found a date
although we need to share the place with other group
however we are very sastified

after the holidays
we went back to college
we were informed that we need to be quarantined
we were not allowed for outing!
WHAT~!!!!
we had pay the deposits
plan everything and...
we faced a very big obstacles
we prayed and prayed
we have to write letters and go through a lot of procedures
and Thanks God that HEP allows us to go out
What a Miracles

Now the journey began 15/8
we reached there about 3pm
then we started an ice breaking
we were divided into 3 groups
Daniel, our camp leader lead the games
we were introduced to each other
quite fun

at night,
our teacher arrive with her younger sister
they shared some messaged to us for few sessions
and we design our group logo ...
we started with a light day

Saturday,
we have a lot of activities
workshop, outdoorgames,...
(too bad it was raining during the swimming period)
we have to build our own boat during workshop
the second generation of tiatinc arise
it really sink when we sailed the boat at the swimming pool
(the history was repeated!! lolx)
outgames...
lead by Cassendra, or also known as Cassy
the peak was in the last game
Water Ballon War
screaming and sabotajing...
it was really fun

                                            

The ships is set to sail!!

Water Balloon War!!

at night
we take photos and play wildy
the guys and the girls chat until midnight---4am!
as for me which is Not a Panda
sleep before 1am

Sunday
we having Sunday service here
not much to said about it
but we learn a lot from the sermon
having photo session after the service

About the food
it was delicious
we have 5 meal per day!
and I was very happy that the groups cooperate to clean up the dishes after we had our meal
No complains and very efficient
this is the first time I see such a great team!

Delicious Food

 

working together to clean after dinner
we went back at 1pm
we dont feel to go back
as it is stress and tense to live a college life
compare to a place like this
but we have to move on
packs our bags and say bye bye to the lovely place

and here i will like to thanks our teachers, pastor
and my friends,(Jasper, Raee, Daniel, Jesmon, Cassy, Edward, Sin Yong)
for making the camp a success!
(Special credit for Nan Song for the T-shirt design and Sin Yong & friend who do the name cards...Last but not least, all the credits to the Lord for everything!)

T-shirt!!

A memory meant to be kept

Sleeeeeeeeeep

well, i should talk about the camp
but i haven't get the picture yets
so i think i will post about it later...

Now, my biggest problem is i cant concentrate in class
it seems like the lecture hall is a bedroom for me
i will fall asleep during the lectures
i cant even stay awake even for my most interest subjects-MATHS!
what should i do???
homework are stacking higher and higher
questions in my head are overloading
different lectures and different book give difference answer
am i really suitable for study physics?
i started to doubt
anyway, i do really feel to quit!
however i had sign a contract!
have to keep pushing myself to the limit...
Sleepiness...when will you get away from me???

Electricity

Finally the water problem is solve
but...
now is electricity problems
the lights will go of for a few seconds for several times in a day
seems not big deal?
well, it cause a lot of trouble as lecturers are using computer and projector to teach...
no electricity= lecture cant teach (or maybe student will not understand)
(hmmm....wonder how lecturer teachs in the past...)

as for me
i cant concnentrate anymore in class or anywhere
feel sleepy at anytime and anywhere
besides from being tired,
the "cyber cafe" or "cinema" beside zx room is so tempting
i had wactched "transformer 2" before the holidays
"dark knight" and "Saw 5" after the holidays
and planning to watch "Saw 3", "Saw 4" and "Obssessed"
see how lazy i turn out!

anyway i am going to a camp at harvest haven this afternoon
well i might upload some photos after i go back home for holidays
(too bad i dont have camera and the school internet line is slow!)

Harsh Week

I'm using english again, that means that i'm officially back to school.
H1N1 is spreading fast, my school is taking precaution steps to prevent the school from shutting down. Many people are wearing mask, quite scary, i thought.

For me,the main problem is the water crisis.
We have face the water problem for more than a MONTH!!
How long will it take them to repair a pipe leakage? a decades???!!!
Dont mention about shower or washing laundry, we cant even wash our hands.
How long can we hang on and strive through?

Besides facing water crisis, i had diarrhea and stomachache.
Bare in mind that the water here is very LIMITED!
Life is getting harder and harder...

Last but not least,
i cant sleep early because my roomate was chatting around loudly
Helo~is 2.30a.m.
why can't they keep their voices down
i can even here what they were talking with my ears close
how do you espect me to sleep?!
as i said earlier
i can't be PANDA!
however, i am forced to as i was disturbed,
now, i became a WALKING ZOMBIE!

做熊猫才=勤力吗？

现在这阶段
常常看到四周的朋友都爱当“熊猫”
而我没有当熊猫的体力
就被人“酸”
我便开始问我自己
熬夜读书才算是正常吗？
熬夜读书才算是勤力吗？
我不否认一些熬夜读书的人的确勤力
但是否勤力读书的人都得熬夜呢？
老实说
我曾经熬夜做功课（顶多到1.00a.m.）
从来没试过熬夜读书
这样我算懒惰吗？
在我身边的朋友没有一个不曾熬夜读书（顶多1-2个）
跟他们比起来
我的确很懒惰
我没资格当熊猫

学习的困难

过几天我得回到PERAK
过不是人过的生活
真不舍得家
学兄常说读书的日子最快乐
但目前我还没体会到
毕竟我学习慢半拍
所以下的苦功也相对比较多
有一位名人（米怜）说
“要說會中文，
身體需銅造，
肺腑需鐵製，
檞木為頭，
鋼簧為手，
有鷹兒的眼，
使徒的心，
瑪土撒拉的長壽。（969岁）”

我想
不止是学中文学习
任何的学问都需要这样的条件
所以我还有很多东西得学呢！

对自己的承诺

记得小时候
我还不懂事
爱开玩笑和讽刺人
有一次不小心过火了
伤了一个朋友的心
虽然我与他仍是好朋友
但我绝不会忘记那件事
从那天起
我答应自己不再乱“酸”别人
开玩笑也要有界限


如今我常常被“酸”
终于体会到被“酸”的感觉
开玩笑的确能让一班人一起开心
但过度的玩笑会伤一个软弱的玻璃心
讲着无心，听者有意
所以
我从不后悔我当天对自己许下的承诺

假假期

放了一个礼拜假
还剩下一个礼拜
不知不觉时间又溜走了
一个星期的时间
每天都与朋友们出街
（我也没想到会花了这样多天）
功课好像永远都做不完
这假期真的是假期吗？
不过还好在家里比在Matriculation像个生活
真不希望回到那繁忙的生活中......

It's hard to be a human

After struggling for a week
my mid-sem exam finally over
how well i did
i dont know
as long i tried my best
result will be out after holidays

the end of exam doenst mean the start of holiday
we still need to continue our study
once enter matriculation
it is a 5 year program
it's no use unless i graduate university
it's a long way

being anticipated for my holiday
(although i have a lot of holiday assigments)
i was been told that i have attidue problems
well,frankly i feel hurted (well i tried my best to be as good as possible)
but i thought about it
i knew my public realtionship (PR) and teamwork sux
and i try to improve that
other than that
am i sellfish? arrogant?impolite?
i dont know
maybe i hurt others without concius
so i hope anyone who read this and knew me pls tell me
what kind of person am i in yours eyes?
PLS do leave some comment
either good or bad
(juz write it as my mood already down)
so that i cant know myself more

well, Happy Holiday!
(for those who have!)

Move on!

After being moody for the whole day and slept for a couples of hour,
i now have o move on and continue my life.
It is no use to cry over a split milk
(except for release the sadness)
exam is coming soon (within 2-3 weeks)
got to study more harder
hope that i who STUPID wont fail the mid semester test!

Study = FAILED

This is the first time i type my blog in enlish because i using matriculasion computer
yup is matriculation, thus no chinese program
So, i been forced to use english...

Life here is not as easy as I thought
Every second counts here
barely even can breathe

Today will be the worst day in here (until now)
as i Failed my class test
Failed with 0/10 mark!!!
this is the first time i get a zero
how sad and depreesed i am
i had completed my homework in time
did my revision
yet i failed
what can i say?
I study not enough hard?
or STUDY = FAILED?